I named him Master. I named him Master because he seems to understand me. I named him because he looks like he cares. I named him Master because when he smiles everything becomes alright; the sky is blue, air is pure and irksome is funny. I named him Master because he knows how to touch me, how to kiss me and he doesn’t just know how but where. I call him Master because he makes me squeal, moan and shiver; easily. I call him Master because when he’s not doing these things I can’t think of nothing else. So I wake and go out about my day in a hurry only because I can’t wait for the day to end so I can see him again.
Master is dark, so dark, it scares me to tears. He hits me repeatedly and gags me and pulls my hair so hard that I feel like trash, used, incapable and the worst part is, I get turned on with every strike. It isn’t possible that I enjoy being debased right? Yes I can enjoy domination to an extent but this is too much, or is it? I ask because my clit throbbed still and this one time when I gathered the strength to pull out and curl myself up in a foetus position away from him, he spanked me and I still moaned regardless of my tears. When eventually he realized I was in tears he held me gently and gave me soft kisses that only made me want to forgive him and love him more than I already did. Master is gentle and caring too; he wants me to tell him everything I think and it makes me compliant; a victim. I don’t want to be the victim; I never want to be the victim but he makes being a victim so easy and comfortable.
His touches still ignite me, his smiles humble me and his eyes see me. I am drawn deeper than I thought possible and my fate in this dilemma doesn’t look good. He gives me the option to stay away or run away when I want but I find that I don’t want to. I want even more to bask in the essence that is him because I know Master is not ready to be mine and maybe might never be mine and that truth there is what breaks me. I know there would always be others. I know I will love again and be happy again when he does leave but I’m still scared the next one wouldn’t be half as perfect and imperfect as Master. What I fear most isn’t the future, it is the now, that moment when I realize it is about to end or it has already ended. Master is going to break my heart.
Beautiful work of art.
Awesome piece! “Knowledge” is so very weak most often than not…